Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Back to work

Yep. I knew it was going to happen one of these days. It just seems too soon. I'm not full time yet, I'll be working 2-3 days a week for the next 2 months and then go back to full time after that. It is very hard to leave Lil, but I am happy to know that she is getting very good care. The woman who is watching her is a stay at home mom with a 9 month old. She will be able to give Lily the individualized attention that is really important to us.

As I left work today, just as I shut down my computer, I winced. I was suddenly struck by the thought of the very last time I pushed that button. That day, just as I pushed the off button on my computer, my cell phone rang. It was the call that changed our life. The call telling me that there was a little girl waiting for us in California. In some ways, it feels like an eternity ago. I remember how surreal it was - the woman from the agency giving me the details of the situation and me calmly answering her questions. I probably didn't even sound excited to her, I think I was in complete shock. It wasn't until after I hung up the phone that I started to tremble and really let into my mind the idea that it could actually be true.

Then I flashed back to my current life and Lily's gummy, smiling face. It is almost beyond comprehension for me.

5 comments:

Laura said...

Beautiful post, made me all teary. I still think about you daily, and I continue to feel so very happy for you and Corey, and your Lil!

The Bossy Yankee said...

Thought about you today. Sounds like the first day back was a success.

That kitchen looks very familiar as do those two cuties in your photo.

You are truly blessed and the best part is you know it!

RusticOkie said...

I remember that first day back at work. Hugs.

Anonymous said...

Could life be any better?
Love ya, Mom

Ellen November said...

Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts and life with us. I am drawn to tears again, reading of the day you got the call. Loved seeing the Flickr Meet-Up exploitations!