Back to work

Yep. I knew it was going to happen one of these days. It just seems too soon. I'm not full time yet, I'll be working 2-3 days a week for the next 2 months and then go back to full time after that. It is very hard to leave Lil, but I am happy to know that she is getting very good care. The woman who is watching her is a stay at home mom with a 9 month old. She will be able to give Lily the individualized attention that is really important to us.

As I left work today, just as I shut down my computer, I winced. I was suddenly struck by the thought of the very last time I pushed that button. That day, just as I pushed the off button on my computer, my cell phone rang. It was the call that changed our life. The call telling me that there was a little girl waiting for us in California. In some ways, it feels like an eternity ago. I remember how surreal it was - the woman from the agency giving me the details of the situation and me calmly answering her questions. I probably didn't even sound excited to her, I think I was in complete shock. It wasn't until after I hung up the phone that I started to tremble and really let into my mind the idea that it could actually be true.

Then I flashed back to my current life and Lily's gummy, smiling face. It is almost beyond comprehension for me.